Geez.
Im here wondering, what am i doing with my life. Im so sore with the thinking and the over thinking, Im just so far gone.
Jamie’s Letter
So like yeah, as you all may not remember, my birthday was in August…Like a month and a half ago. I was being a little ‘mature’ and maybe depressed, cause I missed home, so I didn’t celebrate. No liquor bottles flying or sluts in heels or half opened eyes. Just me, my laptop and some shows. And a good dinner from my brother Jairal. But I don’t remember anything anymore, cause it was quite a while ago.
Well todaaay… I had my breakfast, cleaned my room(to my standards of clean), did all my stuff, watched some Eddie Griffin stand ups… Decided to throw the shit in my room to the big bin outside. Ah since I’m outside… Got a shit load of mail(junk mail). Looking through them and stuff… WEUUU! Finally god Jamie’s Letter!
Waiting for dropbox to update….
WAIT FOR IT MOTHERFUCKERS.
Well so yeah! Omfg she really knows how to piss me off.
She SOLID WRAPPED IT. Air tight, Water proof, Sound proof, Pressure resistance, everything! Cause she wrapped it in idk 5 sheets? CELLOTAPE AGAIN, you know how hard isit to rip something when it’s smooth and tight?
Well the gift within in is priceless and I’ll carry it around all day, everyday.
Cause it’s going to hold my gocard and my student ID. so when I go for exams, it’s going to be there with me.
Look at that badass motherfucker! It’s freaking GOLD! :D
Thank you Jamie, so it turns out that i did celebrate my birthday. Like form 5, I had a huge party, like 100+ people (what the fuck was I thinking right), and it was in late september as well. This year, I celebrated with no one, but I feel the same as that night. Happy and loved :3 I love you so maaaaaaaach jimili!
Its gonna be a good day.
Hahahahah, have just gotten a craving for snickers, ginger, orange juice and bacon. Well let’s be honest, I’ve always had a craving for bacon, but I mean, it’s higher in demand.
Let’s talk about social management, shall we?
I’ve been made clear that I’m to conceal feelings, attitudes or point of views if it will turn to a negative reaction.
Define negative reaction.
I surely cant. Think about it, that ‘negative reaction’ may as well be a ‘positive reaction’. It may be for the best. But then again, is it? Talk about social ethics and ‘doing the right thing’. I am doing the right thing. I’m concealing feelings, attitudes and point of views so I won’t hurt anyone’s feelings. Jesus, it’s really hard.
I don’t know I feel so goddamn shit this week. Uni is clearing up but my life still is in a jumble. Still thinking whether I should come back or not in December. I mean, I miss my friends. But the next time I’m back, they’re probably not. & I don’t want to miss out on an awesome drinking session with them or just a decent hangout discussion. Should I come back at the end of the year? I miss my family. & Rex. But Uni…
Melbourne, welcomes us.
I know Melbourne as the the KL of Malaysia, and as Steffi describes it as, the New York of USA. But you know…I dont think that big :p im really enjoying myself here. I had a lot of fun today for my first day Im so tired from absorbing my surroundings, just adapting here. Im trying to open my eyes to a new city, my sister Shairah is really excited for me. Shes happy that Im making a leap out to adventure. Hahah, and I think this will be good for me.
Im gonna go back to Brisbane, and workout hard, lose as much as I can before my semester starts again, and back to reality. Back to engineering. Yeap, I’m sticking with engineering. Nursing, maybe later on in life. When Im done with engineering, I can help people directly and put smiles of their faces. I cant wait for that. But mums been asking if Im coming back in December. And Im thinking, most probably not. Might only come back in July ‘13. I feel embarassed to see my family. Like I didnt do well for my last semester. I need to do my best and with results before I can come home.
Well. I dont really have much to say. I actually like blogging about my thought about subjects, be it politics, nature, common opinions, food, etc. But not what I did today and shit. I think I will do that from now on. Will talk about Melbourne when Im back home. :-)
With love,
NOBODY
